02 December 2005

i don't even know anymore

My body is slowly shutting itself down because I haven't been able to get enough sleep, food or water for to function at its normal capacity. I am exhausted and stressed beyond what I ever though imaginable. I am ready for this week of hell to be over, for everything in my life to settle down and be normal again. I never thought I would see the day that I was homesick. As much as I love it here I miss home. I miss all my friends and family there. I miss people who actaully care about how I am doing and look forward to seeing me. I miss people who actually take the time to get to know me rather than getting hung up stereotypes and the wall that I keep around myself.
How is that movie of yours coming along, you might ask. Well, let's just leave it at "I don't want to talk about it right now, and possibly not ever."
I think I just need some sleep, snow, food, hugs, snow, snow and snow!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

we miss you too Erika :'0( and you will be home soon so we must cut our losses and wait for the glorious times that we will have when you return. Luv your snowboard buddy.

-Ryan

Anonymous said...

Love you sweetie!! No matter what you do...sleep is good and vit C!!! Keep that mono AWAY!!! Chin up! You will be back home in the midwest soon. LOVE YOU xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo